6 days into the new year and you know what I have been pondering… Love. You would think my mind would be in a frenzy with everyone else over diet, exercise and how I am going to make my mark on this year. Those things have crossed my mind…I can tell you my body is fussing at me now from this workout plan that I am on and I miss chocolate, but LOVE has been so captivating. God really has been doing a number to transform my mind on what love actually is. How relationships should form? Foundation…. I think my fatal mistake was watching Love Jones at the end of 2020 and then reading The Perfect Find by Tia Williams. Oh and did I mention I also watched Bridgeton!
Ever since I entered the world my idea of love has been shaped by relationships I’ve seen on TV. The Huxtables, Martin and Gina, Whitley and Dewayne. My favorite movies are all 90s love stories Love Jones, Boomerang, Strictly Business, Hav Plenty, Brown Sugar and I could go on. So when I think about how men should love me it is literally based off of fantasy and I knooooowww that is not realistic. But is it crazy for me to want Love Jones and Jesus in the same relationship? Hear me out…Lol I want purpose and passion to collide in my marriage. I want to grow dizzy looking at him somedays because I’m ecstatic by the fact that God deemed me worthy enough to love him, to procreate with him, to pursue purpose with him. I am totally clear on the fact that Marriage and all of the things forementioned takes work but there are times when I feel like people get lost in just that…WORK.
If our marriage is to be a reflection of God’s love for us, am I not to be in awe of him as well and him the same for me?
I still believe that love can absolutely be beautiful and challenging at the same time. Which is why I’ve been waiting so long because I want the wait to be worth it. I trust God enough to know that it will be.
Don’t lose hope ladies… he is out there. Don’t settle.
I assure you that if you let God lead you, he will surely be worth the wait.
Until Next Time